Razzi Writes #26

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Hello again, everyone. Have you seen the Truman Show with Jim Carey? It is the film where Jim’s character is born into a film studio and every aspect of his life is manufactured for television and yet he knows nothing about it and believes he is just leading a normal life. Meanwhile, the nation watches as everything he does is broadcast on television. It is a great film and one of my favourites. I have often thought; how do I know I am not living in a television studio with everything that happens to me being decided by a film director? I know it is a crazy thought but thank goodness I am now Jonny Benjamin!

Jonny has been coping with mental illness since he was a child. He is prone to extreme anxiety attacks and gets obsessive thoughts. He watched the Truman Show and for the next ten years believed he was Truman Burbank. Jonny watched the film at the cinema with a friend, who then said; “Maybe that could be you, but you wouldn’t know it.”

Jonny started dwelling on that idea and for the next decade believed that he was being watched by cameras just like in the Truman Show. He started to believe that everything that happened to him was not real. It wasn’t until he was finally hospitalised at the age of 20 that a psychiatrist finally explained to him that it was all in his head. This proved to be a major awakening for Jonny and he started to realise that he had been in a delusion.

Now Jonny has started a blog where he posts videos talking about his experiences and has so far posted about 40 videos. In the videos he speaks openly about hearing voices, the employment difficulties he faces, and many other personal insights. This month he has received the Janey Antoniou Award, presented by the mental illness charity Rethink, for his work battling stigma and raising awareness of schizophrenia and mental illness.

Benjamin’s videos are very honest and some might think that disclosing a mental illness online could harm his future in the same way indiscreet photos posted to Facebook can affect your future job prospects but Jonny dismisses this. “It doesn’t concern me too much. I’d rather be open about my mental health than hide it away. I suffered so much growing up because I kept everything silent, I could never go through that again. I feel like I have to be open and honest now, just for my own health.”

Listening to Jonny gives a fascinating insight into how people can cope with mental illness. He explains how he has to monitor how much television he watches so that he doesn’t become delusional about the programme. He says that he has many friend with schizophrenia who believe they’re getting messages from their TV, in particular from reality shows.

The main thing that struck me about Jonny was that, despite suffering from schizophrenia, he is still pretty much like you and me. He is not a monster, he is somebody with a problem who is doing his best to overcome that problem and while doing so is relieving some of the negative connotations associated with mental illness.

You can watch some of Jonny’s videos here.


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Self-confessed playbear and lady-killer; Razzi has the heart of many of our friends at his beck and call. Although very hard working in his daytime job as an Assistant Driving Instructor, he also likes to play very hard when the day is done. A smouldering look from Razzi has been known to melt many a fair maiden’s icy heart!

24 Comments on “Razzi Writes #26”

  1. See people kicking off because people get involved in there buissness. Well it wouldn’t happen if you didn’t post it all over Facebook for people to comment on and get involved.

  2. when people’s mums get involved in their teenage daughters’ arguments, swearing and carrying on with girls less than half their age, really have no self respect at all. how embarrassing, it’s like something you’d see on jezza kyle hahahaha

    don’t you have any washing up to be doing instead, christ

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