So me && Jay walked down to our Vicki’s cos its only five minutes away && meant we could drink.. Zoe got a taxi there && we all met up.. I introduced them && they were both like “Hiya”.. A bit awkward like it usually is the first time ya meet someone.. I thought they will be alright once they have a bevy or three && everyone gets chilled.. I hate drugs but i know our vicki sometimes has a line when she drinks && so does Zoe && Jay.. So after we’d been there a bit Jay was acting like a complete && utter arsehole.. I asked him what he was playing at && he was like “nothings wrong.. don’t worry about me..”
So after a bit i thought something is really up with Jay i don’t know whats going on.. So i suddenly thought i bet he’s had a line && is acting up cos of that.. So i asked him && he swore that he hadn’t had anything other than some drink.. I was telling gim that there was something wrong with him && if he doesn’t come clean i was goin to go home.. So he started cryin && saying that he had lied to me && that he had bought some stuff but that he hadn’t touched it yet.. I have told him before that i don’t like drugs && that my ex was a right coke-head who used to turn violent when he had stuff && that made me hate it even more but i didnt mind if he had anything as long as he could handle it && i didn’t end up with a black eye like with Liam (me ex)..
I was like what the fuck are you crying for && he said that he didn’t want me to think he was goiing to end up like Liam.. So i repeated what i had told him before i didn’t care if he had stuff as long as he didnt get violent with me over it.. So i said our Vicki’s had some in her car go && get the car keys off her && have a line if it will make ya feel better && ya know i don’t mind.. Zoe heard wot we was saying && asked him how much he had so he said he had a £40 bag && she offered to go half with him && the pair of them disappeared to our Vicki’s car..
I thought to meself, that’s one way to ease the tension between them hahaha..
The pair of them were gone for ages && i was beginning to wonder what was going on when i noticed Jay was back inside talking to our Danielle’s fella.. So i was like where the fuck is Zoe.. I started looking for her && found her in floods of tears in the back garden having a fag.. I was asking her what the fuck the matter was but she was just saying nothin.. I was thinking her && Jay had been having a argument or something when she finally come clean && said work was getting her down.. She’s just left a job that she loved && where she had loads of mates but the money was shit.. Now she is working in a place where she doesn’t know anyone && all her anxieties are kicking off.. She has never worked anywhere before where she doesn’t know anyone && has to make new friends && it was getting her down.. I comforted her && told her to give it time && she would soon get to know people there && everything would be fine.. I had a ciggie with her (sorry Davidd) && she was alright after a while..
Next thing Jay comes out && says he wants a word with me on me own.. I am thinking fuckin’ hell, what now?? Turns out he is having a panic attack thinking he has lied to me about getting some stuff.. That was the sort of behaviour Liam used to get up to && he didn’t want me thinking he was like Liam.. So next thing i am having to calm him down saying that he didn’t lie to me he just didn’t tell me he had got it which he doesnt really have to.. He doesn’t have to report everything he does to me like.. He said he just wanted me to know that he is not like Liam && never would be cos he knows i’d kill him if he was.. Eventually he was ok too && come round..
So ya all know i get stressed at work && now you can see ive even got mates who stress me out when am not in work..
Life is just one big stressball!!