So i went home from work early cos i just couldn’t stop goin’ hot && cold all the time.. One minute i was shivvering && the next i was sweatin’ like a pig.. When i got in me mum was like, “what are you doing home at this time..” So i told her i was dying && she sent me to bed && come up && was rubbin’ me hair && givin’ me cuddles && was dead worried about me.. I couldn’t sleep so i rang davidd up to tell him i was dyin but as soon as i got threw to him i felt like i was going to throw up && so i hung up && ran to the toilet.. Davidd was panicking wondering where i had gone && wat was up with me.. He rang me, was txtin’ me && ya could tell he was dead worried about me — awww bless his little cotton socks..
So when Jay comes in wot does he do?? He says “Awww hard luck, babe.. I will leave ya to it then,” && off he goes downstairs..
Vicki was at ours with the kids && that is where Jay really wanted to be.. he loves playing with Vicki’s kids so jay is off screaming && shouting all over the gaff chasing the kids && stopping me from goin’ asleep.. Then he’s out in the road playing with the kids on their bikes screaming && laughing.. The chances of me getting any sleep were fuckin’ nil.. So am lyin’ in bed calling him a bastard && worse when i hear someone comin’ up stairs.. I’m guessing its me mum or our vicki to see how i am but no it was Jay.. Awwwww he really cares after all, he’s come to see how I am feeling && check am ok.. Bollocks, hes come to get a game for the x-box to play with the kids.. He is only in the room 30 seconds && then he’s off sayin’ that he doesn’t want to disturb me.. yea wotevs!!
I know he is an only child so he never had the chance growing up of playin’ with kids but fuck me, he makes up for it now.. Whenever our Vicki comes round with her kids then i am long forgotten so he can play with them.. I don’t normally mind, in fact i think its great that he loves kids, but he could have just a little bit of time for me && some sympathy if am not well..
Then to make matters worser i’ve been watching Lost with Jay && since watching it I keep having weird dreams.. The other night’s dream went like this…
We went out with Jay’s mates into town && he bought drugs off his mate (behind my back but I seen it).. Then he was trying to be all loved up && was all over me, so his mate come up behind him && popped a balloon on his arse which they all found hysterical.. Think my dream took “doing balloons” to a whole new level!! Anyway he had these drugs && disappeared for ages so I went looking for him && found him walking out the toilets necking some girl.. He had clearly been shagging her in the fucking toilets of the club.. I got all hysterical screaming && hitting him as you do && this girl just laughed at me && told me to get a grip.. She then walked back into the toilet so i ran off && left Jay absolutely heartbroken..
I woke up back in bed && went to reach out to him because I was proper upset && the fucking kunt wasn’t there!! So I was lying there dead upset on my own in my bed while he was completely oblivious on his way to London for work..
What a kunt, he even cheats on me in me dreams!!